Yesterday was another one of those mornings where I woke up feeling a heaviness in my chest thinking "oh my goodness, I'm 15dp3dt.. what if something is wrong?" as I got ready to leave for my second beta test.
I know my RE said he wanted to see a number of at least 400... that would have been an excellent number, and we would have been happy with that.
When the nurse called me at 1:00 pm, I held my breath and prepared for the worst.
"Your numbers are rising appropriately and are now at 663.6, so we'll see you on Thursday morning for a repeat HCG."
WHAT!? You they've more than doubled!? OmG!! Im so happy. I mean, I would have loved to have seen an even higher number, but I think I put too much time and energy into those numbers. As long as they're rising and keep on doubling, then I guess those numbers shouldn't really mean anything, and I have to stop comparing them to women who are pregnant with multiples.
Maybe I'm just sad to think that one of my embies didn't make it. I'm thankful that one of them did, and this feeling of actually being able to say that I'm pregnant is more than I could have asked for.
So tomorrow is my third and hopefully final beta. I'm hoping that we can schedule our first ultra sound so we can finally see this little monkey inside of me and hear/see it's precious little heart beating.
My symptoms are still the same... tired, tired tire TIRED.. heartburn like whoa... frequent urination... sore boobs... SOOO thirsty... oh and have I mentioned that I'm tired? Yeah, because I am. But nothing has really changed. I think that's why I keep wondering if I really am pregnant. Is this even real? The symptoms come and go (except for the fatigue), so I freak out whenever I put a bra on and my boobs aren't screaming for release.
Fun fact for those of us who've struggled with infertility and loss for so long. Every little symptom (and lack of) counts.
Tomorrow, I'm going to believe that my HCG levels will more than double again. I'm ready to see this little one on the ultrasound. So no 1300... Give me 2000!!!
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