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I slept gloriously last night and didn't even bother crawling out of bed until well after 10:00am.  Other than the fact that I woke up 4 or 5 times to use the bathroom, I was pretty much wrapped in my comforter, snuggled in between pillows and probably snoring from feeling so exhausted.

They should market progesterone shots as a sleep aid.  I used to have to take Tylenol PM or SOMETHING just to help me get to sleep.  Now that I've been injecting this sludge into my butt every night, I can't keep my eyes open past 11:00pm.

I received an email from my clinic stating that I have to start using a progesterone insert in addition to the PIO shots.  Seriously?  How am I going to stay awake during the day?!

I also have to add one more Estrogen patch to the two that I'm already wearing.  This is freaking me out.  Why are they increasing my dosages?  I thought all of this stuff was pretty much working because of the side effects that I've been feeling.  Does this mean that the IVF isn't going to work because my hormone levels are low?  I wish they would have told me why... or what's going on.  But it was a sweet, short and to-the-point email in my portal which ended with a positive note and a smiley face.

Grrrr.

As far as symptoms are concerned, this morning I'm feeling a little bit sore in my uterus.  Not sure if that has anything to do with anything, but it is different.  Everything else is the same except the swelling in my stomach has gone down even more.  It's taken five days after the transfer for the swelling to go away.  Oh, and my face is all flushed and hot like I was sitting outside on a summer day for 10 minutes... That's because I'm half vampire, and the sun burns my skin if I don't find shade.

I'm not POAS today.  I figured that it would be a waste, and I don't think I could handle seeing a BFN, so I'll just enjoy the day by watching some really good movies (Junebug and Eternal Shine of the Spotless Mind), do some light cleaning and maybe catch up with friends.

I've been avoiding everyone because I haven't told any of them what I've been going through.  They have no idea of the journey we've been on these past few weeks, and for some reason, I'm just not ready to share.